It's been a long time ~ 15 years in fact ~ but we have a baby again. Strictly speaking, of course, he's not mine; he is our friend's but come Sunday morning he becomes mine for just a little bit.
Is there anything quite like a newborn baby? The smell, so clean & new; the downy softness of hair; the wide~eyed gaze as they absorb the wonders of the world they suddenly find themselves in. Yep he's absolutely adorable: loved; wanted; petted & coddled just as every baby should be.
Sundays have had to be adjusted a little bit to accommodate bubs & mum ~ but isn't that how it should be? Funny isn't it? You never lose the knack once you've learned how & babies always seem to know when they're being handled with confidence.
The spiritual life's like that too, don't you find? Once you've learnt how it's all so easy but until you get the knack you wonder how other people can breeze through things without batting an eyelash. So, the Lord & I have been having one of our sessions where I do a Star & roll my eyes & go, "Must I?" & the Lord digs in His heels to wait patiently till I accede. *sigh* Just sometimes I'd like to do things the easy way...well, alright; I'd always like to do them the easy way instead of batting round wildly like a netted bird trying to figure out how this stuff works.
Now I don't know how any of you learn. Probably not the way I do. You can tell me & you can show me ~ & if you're really brave you might try making me do it myself ~ & nothing happens except I get more confused & even stupider than I at first appear. What I need to do is study it from every angle & then quietly experiment with different approaches until I randomly hit on the one that is going to work for me this time. I can't be relied upon to get it the same way every time. I am a nightmare to teach because I never want to do it the way I'm told to do it & am likely to be majorly distracted by random sidetracks which are far more entertaining & end up at my destination by a very circuitous route. It drives people batty. I think like that too. Ever notice?
Anyway....I have been sitting on some stuff the Lord showed me like a broody hen hatching a clutch of cuckoo eggs ~ & I have been sitting on this stuff for some time, years in fact for some of it. And whenever I went to the Lord & said, "Look, what do you want me to do about this?" I got a big, "WAIT". I'm not strong in the patience department & my patience was being stretched thin. Bit of a worry when that happens. I tend to take things into my own hands & create havoc & mayhem. Yeah.
So for Christmas Liddy gave me a couple of books on dealing with the gift of prophecy because like I said I am waaay out of my depth with this stuff with no~one to ask. The chappie who thinks I'm going to do the exercises he sets out is delusional. Um, no. However I am pondering two things that have stayed with me after my first quick read through to see what's in there. The first is so obvious I wonder about me, I really do. Character first. God is far more interested in developing our character than he is worried about our spiritual gifts. Um, yeah. I knew that.
The second has got me floundering because it was completely unexpected. The flip side of prophecy is intercessory prayer. Now logically this makes perfect sense. I can see how this works. And chances are if you are anywhere at all on my blog roll I have prayed for you. Sorry Sandra.
Now I don't do intercessory pray. I have never ever thought of myself as an intercessor. Some days I feel quite silly praying for people when God knows so much better than I do what they need & how best to provide for their need. I prefer God tell me what He wants me nattering at him about. I don't really know the first thing about standing in the gates. My prayer life has not been like that. I don't even have the sort of mind that thinks wrestling in prayer with God is a good idea. Job tried that & got told; big time. I can be a little slow sometimes so what am I missing here, girls? [I think I need to go out & buy another book or two...] Who does intercessory prayer & how does it work for you? "My ear is open like a greedy shark..." Don't you love that quote?! Keats. Some things really are inexcusable!