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Friday, October 15, 2010



Did you notice I have been uncharacteristically silent? I know! So unlike me. I have been busy & dithering; I am sooo good at dithering.   I'm almost as good at dithering as I am at being practical &  I dither as well as I procrastinate. Ooooh, you want to know what I've been dithering about! You know I was almost not going to blog about this because, you know, this is my social site & it was all set up for a very particular purpose ~ which has worked out very nicely, thank you very much, & I didn't really want to change anything but.....

And it is a very BIG but ~ The Lord has been nagging at me, the way He does & we've been having this ongoing conversation [the way we do]. *sigh* I hate when the Lord starts leaning on me but isn't terribly specific.  I like my instructions laid out nice & clearly & highlighted in fluro colours ~ you know, UN~MIS~TAKE~ABEL!!!  I'm funny that way.  The Lord says jump & I stand there going, "High jump or long jump?  How high?  How far?  Does it count if I land flat on my face?"

Anywaaay... I keep getting given these messages but nowhere to deliver them.  Talk about frustrating.  I leaked dribs & drabs out here ~ & the Lord must so have been rolling His eyes but if He will be vague it's hardly surprising if I am obtuse.  This is the long way round but I am getting there.

I know nothing about how anyone else deals with stuff like this but I start getting really agitated, especially when I start getting a sense of urgency from the Lord ~ or maybe it's just frustration that I'm so, "Like, which planet am I on, Lord?"  And Dearest hates it.  I can so work myself up into a tizz.  Worse, trying to hold so much of the Holy Spirit who is bursting with something to say is like being a walking minefield.  I'm telling you, not fun at all.  So we have been having these sessions, the Lord & I, then Dearest & I, what Quakers might call, "Meetings for Clearness" trying to discern clearly just what the Lord expects me to do, how & where & we think we have an answer.  Maybe.  Perhaps.  Sort of...?

So for those of you who visit Out of the Silence, I am moving everything on that site & shutting that blog down because originally it was the simplest way of sharing with my friend, MamaO, who wanted to know my thoughts & stayed up because I'm lazy & disorganized & never got around to shutting it down. I have been putting together a new blog specifically for all this ~ one I hope to be posting a relevant message on once a month but there will be no links to it from this blog.  I have a different user name [complicated but one the Lord impressed upon me with interesting symbolism] & I didn't want anyone visiting here to feel obligated in any way.  Besides, I need some time to get my act together over there! lol  Anyone who really wants a link, e~mail me & I will provide it but it really needs to stand or fall on its own merits, hey what.

So there you have it.  That's what I've been doing this week.  Maybe I'm delusional.  Could explain a lot...

22 comments:

Ruby said...

In brief, you have started a new blog :-)
You know my email....send me the link please.

alecat said...

Dithering ... a good word for me too this week. ☺

I think you know me pretty well, enough to know that I don't speak too much about personal thoughts and beliefs. I have too many friends and family who visit my blog for updates. Homeschooling is one issue many have, but beliefs is an even greater one. It's resulting in too many splinterings, especially with my siblings.

Having somewhere to write and let it stand on its own merits, with a different username, makes a lot of sense to me.

Ganeida said...

Ruby: Good Grief, girl! That was quick off the mark. I will send you the link ~ when I can find it again. lol There's nothing really there yet except 2 old posts but you are welcome. ☺

alecat: I do understand ~ & some of what I have to say will not be very popular *sigh* I hate being given the hard messages. I do like to be liked you know...

Ruby said...

Aha...were you still at your computer? I saw the post at top of my reader but you know sometimes they take hours to come up. Maybe yours came through straight away?
I mentioned the time thing once before. You see your time stamp on the comments is saying 2.30 am? Wanna change that? Go to your settings and adjust. Probably doesn't worry you but it feels strange to think people might think I am up at that hour commenting!

Alecat. I also understand what you are saying. I blog family stuff for real life friends elsewhere and homeschool/ spiritual thoughts at Mumma's Place under an alias. The odd thing is after almost 2 years blogging some of these unseen people have become my friends.

Amanda said...

Ganeida, I just sensed you were up to something lol! I knew it! I think it sounds like a great idea (or should that be God idea?!).

Please send me the link. I like hard messages. No, I don't like, I LOVE them.

Thank you and I look forward to when it gets rolling.

Amanda said...

ps. I'm with Ruby... I noticed the time stamp... it must be set to usa time because many a time, it would show the day before ;) not that it bothers me too much...

Ganeida said...

Amanda: Well, hon, it wasn't my idea lol

I am working on Hosea 10: 12 ~ this could get old fast. *sigh*

And do I seriously have to fiddle with the time thingy? I didn't know anyone even noticed this stuff. [& no, I don't. ☺ Obviously or I would have fixed it before now. lol]

Amanda said...

I can't wait to read your post on Hosea. Amazing as I was just thinking about that book today. I have just read a christian novel based on the message of Hosea.

The HoJo's said...

I tend to ponder such things quietly, so quietly I am fairly sure it all leaks in like osmosis, so email me please :o)

Persuaded said...

May I have the link.... pleeeeeze?

You know, I didn't even know you had another blog, but I popped right on over there and spent a goodly time reading your article on Song of Solomon. I love your insights- and I especially appreciate how you give so much background information. Honestly, much of the time it's stuff I've never heard of, but it gives so much depth and relevancy to the passages. So yes... I'd love the link to your new digs♥

Ganeida said...

Amanda: I am finding Hosea fascinating. My problem [isn't it always? lol] will be sticking to the main point God is trying to make! So many fascinating bunny trails & I do so love bunny trails!

Hojos: A pleasure m'dear ~ though I can't think anything I have to say would interest a smart cookie like yourself. I am very, very simple 'cause I have trouble understanding the clever people. ☺

Diane, my love, it is always a pleasure to chat with you ~ & you know me. I can't talk about anything without delving into the history. Wait till you see what fun stuff I've dredged up on Hosea!!! I love this stuff. So exciting!

joyfulmum said...

Ganeida, Kindly send me the link too please though I know what I'll be getting myself into - brain strain lol! it's all good though I'd love to get to know you more by reading what God gives you:)
I also started another blog to write down spiritual stuff as my blog is read by many friends of mine of different beliefs but I'm still waiting on God's time for that one!

Bonnie said...

I would really like the link too. Can you leave it on my blog. I was wondering where you were. Can't wait to read what God has to say through His servant--you!

seekingmyLord said...

About time, Ganeida! You are a writer and a prophetess and a blogger. It only makes sense that this was the direction the Lord wanted for you. (I thought you might never get it, but here you are!)

Ganeida said...

Rosemary: Oh I do sooo hope you don't get brain strain! ;0

Bonnie: Done!

Seeking: Conflicting messages m'dear & I don't do well when God is about as clear as mud! lol And why, oh why, m'dear, didn't you just shove your oar in & go, "Bloggit, Girl. Just, Bloggit!" lol Let's just hope, having got this far, there isn't a deafening silence!

LightBulb_88 said...

Me too, please! <3

seekingmyLord said...

Because knowing the path for another sometimes requires time for prayer, preparation, and then waiting with hope and watching in silence for the other person to be ready to accept the path. You have been seeing that with your daughter, but not for yourself, which is the way it usually is, and you needed to see it for yourself.

One thing you should hold in your heart: Remember that silence does not mean the message the Lord gave you to share is not received, only that you received nothing back. The question to ask yourself is why are you are giving the message: to serve the Lord's purpose or to be encouraged, perhaps even rewarded, by the readers? (A bit of an "ouchy" there, eh?) Just pray, waiting in hope and watching in silence, as the others grow into their paths.

Ganeida said...

Seeking: Nailed! lol I'm female. Talking is how I sort myself out! And yes, while feedback is lovely [usually. If it's nice feedback] I actually don't expect it from the new blog. Remember how much I've whinged about Out of the Silence & how silent everyone always is!!! I've been pre~warned. ☺ When do you get home?

seekingmyLord said...

One more week. We plan to leave on Saturday, but are able to stay until Sunday, if need be. I will email you, if I can just keep this connect long enough!

Ganeida said...

Seeking: meant to say re the silence that I hope it's not God who's going to suddenly decide to be silent. lol I have missed you my friend & I so wish I could sit you down somewhere where we could have a periodic good old chin wag instead of these frustrating technological gateways ~ only if it wasn't for them I wouldn't even know you, would I?

seekingmyLord said...

It is hard to believe how much I can miss a person when one of us has "technical difficulties" or a IRL situation calling us away and when we have not even met in person. I was just thinking this week, what if the plug got pulled in some way...or worse, what if God pulled it? (((Shutter!)))

Ganeida said...

Seeking: I can get rather morbid lol but be warned, eventually the plug will be pulled because as we slide into the end times that whole 666 thing kicks into place & no Christian is going to be able to play on the net any more! Well, not unless they can work out how to circumnavigate a system that requires money! So all these little cells encouraging & exhorting each other are going to find themselves stranded & isolated, not knowing what has become of each other. I rather hope I'm not round by the time it gets that bad. All I can say is, Thank God for the hope that we have in Him because eventually we will all be together!