Whew! Everything is whirling into end of year madness ~ but at least certain things will then stop.
This week I had the school's homiletics class ~ which means I had to present something because Rhema is all about being a doer of the word, not a hearer only. This would have been less of a problem if I were not also preaching on Sunday ~ which would be less stressful if Dino was not graduating on Saturday....& we also have a seminar on the Thursday & break up on Wednesday. Meanwhile I have been sitting up till midnight to co~ordinate the last of Star's work ~ the last time ever I will have to do this so a bitter sweet moment.
Always prone to panic attacks where no panic is necessary I was just a tad upset as the homeletics class was the only class I had approached with any semblance of confidence, boosted by the fact most of the class had hit a bigger panic button than mine over *public speaking*! Not me. I minored in drama at Uni. If nothing else I was confident in presentation, though after a week of the Dean's bracing comments on what to do/not do I decided ignorance was definitely bliss! Anyway, having gone to the Lord in a panic He reminded me I had been rehearsing this testimony for weeks in my head & it was just a simple matter of putting some scripture to it. I was pleased with how it went. It is far more nerve wracking to speak before a woman who has spoken around the world to large audiences than our little island congregation. Dino did his today ~ very good though inexperience meant he didn't finish as he wanted having misjudged his time.
I have Friday at home ~no classes~ & though we will go over for church as usual I will at least be able to use that day for Sunday's preparation. I have been getting a regular spot each month, enough to keep me in practice, not enough to overburden me while I am in school. I realised today how blessed I am to be getting that regular practice. I am *performance hardened* as Star would happily inform me. It's not that I don't still get nervous, because I do, but I know how to deal with it. It is not debilitating. I know how to engage with an audience. What I have to watch is how I feed of the audience! lol
I am looking forward to Monday when all I still have left to deal with is is Star's singing.